true blue

People say that you shouldn't look back to the past too often and I guess they're right. Sometimes I wonder how I managed to make myself believe that I was truly happy then. Looking back, I think that when one's in the situation, you just get so caught up by whatever's going on (emotions, new things happening, etc) that you get blinded and lose your sense of judgement. This is probably why it's important for those around you who aren't looking at things through rose-tinted glasses like you are, to keep you grounded and to remind you of who you really are.

Do I regret it? Yes, and no. Yes because I find that I had spent a good amount of my time, efforts and emotions on something that wasn't worth it in the end and that I did not realize it at that time. There are many things which cannot be undone and experiences which could have been much, much better. But oh well.

And no, because it at least taught me a very valuable lesson or I may otherwise commit the same mistakes again. I would also be lying if I said that there weren't times when the emotions weren't real.

Anyway, it's high time that I move and forgive myself and others. I can only hope that my heart doesn't allow history to repeat itself and that my brain makes better decisions this time around. :) Can't say that I'm not still afraid of making a mistake though.